Chaos Theory

Totally random phrases. Do not try to make any sense out of it.

A decade maybe. Happenings. It will not move. It is sharp. It will keep you awake. US and UK in world war 2. Not fully conscious. Male bonding gone too far. Not destructible. Beyond inverse tangent. The science and art of. The year of the infant is over. Ganguli retired. At the very centre. Taking things too far, or maybe not.

Multilingual oil driller. Not quite swedish. A single horned mammal, or double?. His namesake was slapped. Cane, or Kane? Special. Pseud Distros. Krishna and the second big letter. A great pair. America's military headquarters. Hanging from an exterior point.

Children hit fruits. Warriors hit buildings. He explains. I can. :D for perverts. Just like relativity was explained. Sea function. Not sure if in or out. Wierd documents. Xerox machines are now outdated forms of copying. No offence meant. Apologies if offended.

Two institutions. Set theory. Total scrap. Numbered accounts, not quite. The great escape. Only one beginning. Too many spices, apparently. Numbers and algorithms. Spanners and simulations. A non living dead body. Female poultry. Male politics. More bar. It inspired a good looking bone. Narcotics in sport. Not the mint with the hole. Three beginnings altogether. Incorect gramer.

Two long strings. Some fight. Some net. Hate of kings and presidents. Belief and not so smooth consensus. Need not complete it. Not many lit-soc notices. Anagram and in feb-march. All's well that begins and ends. Not the same? Anyways, I couldnt care lesser any more.

Curiosity killed the cat. Or it spoiled a quiz.

Currently on my mind

1. Philosophy of scoring systems in competitions
2. MATLAB code to solve an equation
3. Wiki page on OCD
4. Who should stand for secretary
5. I need to put a treat, but is it worth spending the cash?
6. Pending reimbursements and a large bundle of cash in my bag
7. Having a bath with hot water.
8. Scoring full marks in Quiz 1.
9. Confronting my BTP professor.
10. Why was my hand at rummy so bad today?
11. Stomach ache (thats not on my mind..i am experiencing it right now)
12. Why cant I die in some bomb blast
13. Do I have the guts to commit suicide? Is it the most logical thing to do?
14. Will going to Tirupathi improve life for me?
15. I should ditch my job and apply for PhD at IISc.
16. Why the hell am I doing all this on Valentine's day instead of going out for a good dinner?
17. Who the hell will I go out with? will i, ever?

Reason to be

You're the reason I wake up
at the early hour of the day,
to see if everything is set
perfectly your way.

You're the reason I smile
though sadness lies deep,
sweet conversations with you
are the joys that I keep.

You're the reason I laugh
though sorrow brings only tears,
you make me forget all
my worries and my fears.

You're the reason I dream,
to be with you all day,
moments of happiness and joy
I will carry all the way.

You're the reason my heart
beats faster or takes a dive,
you're the reason I live
and am still alive.

Looking for a job

Few days after placements, life is quite different.

Prior to placements, I remember myself sleeping no more then four hours a day. Watched not more than three movies in the entire semester, and did not play a single computer game. It was all about books and code, and being busy 24X7.

Well, now life is quite different. Placement is done. (It is a story in itself, which i might post in some other blogpost.) Project reviews are done. Right now, I am "putting peace". I have started gaming, and crashing not less than eight hours a day. Walking all the way to tiffanys for breakfast, not cribbing about spending time in the queues, and farting in Gurunath and Basera. For the first time, I am liking long queues as they are good for killing time. :P

I am trying hard to excel at this game called DotA. And after 10 hours of "practice" all I have managed to get at the end of a game is 3 kills and 8 deaths. :( But still, DotA rocks!!

Now I am looking for somethng interesting to do. Searching for good blogs that are updated, scavenging my shelf for some book (ya, I found an unread sydney sheldon there, yayy!!), and trying to generate the enthu to write something.

Sooooo jobless! A "first time" feeling.

Draco dormiens nunquam titillandus

This isnt a well written post, but I wasnt in a mindset to write a well written post; so here it is, as it is.

Well, the first thing to note is that you dont need any of those exotic substances to get high. The excitement around can very well get you there. And once you are on the top of the roof, you dont know what you are doing.

The evening was all going on well, until I get involved in the big mess. Firstly, you should realize that its better to mind your own business than get high on the excitement and do things that you will repent later on. Paining the hell out of a friend is quite common, but thinking of it later on, we did cross the line.

Nothing wrong in that too, you would say, but then, there is this burden of virtuousness, the feeling that keeps biting you. But once done is done. Life has no UNDO button on its screen.

Also, you never know how things can get back at you, so the best policy is to let the dragon sleep, rather than wake him up and laugh at him as if you have played the biggest prank of the century.

Well, this is an apology to a great friend, who was at his wits' end that evening.

Instantaneous thought

Consider the following scenario: A team is presented with a spade.

Someone influential in the team comes up with the proposition that the presented object is a rake. The ideal team player is supposed to accept that proposition as perfectly sound. He should actually hear out the person for quite some length of time, and take notes on that. Even though he knows perfectly well that it is a spade, he is supposed to keep his views to himself. Only then can the discussion go on, and people feel that they have got the freedom of giving their opinion.

Then the ideal team player gets the chance to speak. At first, he is supposed to speak about the positive aspects of the spade being called a rake so that proponents of that idea feel that they are on the right track and are making a contribution to the team. Then probably he can put forward a few points that suggest that the so called "rake" might not be a rake. At every point of time, he is supposed to make sure that the whole team is with him. After lengthy discussion on each of the points, the proponents of the rake theory slowly realize that their rake theory has some flaws, and the presented object might not be a rake. Note that they still havent accepted that it is a spade.

Now the team player has to wait for someone to come up with the idea that the object might be a spade. Only then can he put forward point s supporting the FACT and then convince the team.

The end result is that the whole team has accepted the fact that the object is a spade after all. But the exercise has taken hours of productive meeting time, and you, who knows well that it was a spade, feels like having wasted a lifetime.

But thats the way teams work. It is not in the team spirit to call a spade a spade at the very first instant. The next level of maturity comes when you give up your thought of the spade being a spade, and you evolve with the team.

I am learning to be a team player.

Mathematization

You can ignore the title as it is given for my lack of knowledge of a better word. Having given GRE a week ago, I think, does not make any difference in my ever so small vocabulary. Neither does cracking quant make any difference to my math skills, which remain at an average D graded. However, what follows is my attempt at trying to define something by a mathematical function: L (k,t)

Characteristics (for a given k):

1. The independent variable is time. That is, the graph is plotted with respect to time, and exists only in the first and 4th quadrants.

2. At t = 0, the function has a certain positive value, which is generally finite, but may tend to infinity in some cases. However, the special cases are excluded for general analysis.

3. The function gradually increases with time and tends to infinity. However, it goes to minus infinity for the next instant.

4. As time progresses, the value of the function approaches zero asymptotically from the negative.

5. Well, I can say, without doing much thinking, (which leaves a lot of scope to find out faults if anyone ever decides to read this post, or even comment, if i am really that fortunate) that the function will be:

L(k) = L(k)o + tan (0.5*t*pi/T) ; for 0=< t < T

L(k) = 1/(T-t); for T=< t


Well, the attempt is to define love. When you see someone(k), at t=0, there is finite attraction, which goes to infinity as time progresses. However, at some point of time, you realize that you have lost (time = T). Then you start hating that person so much, that you dont want to see, hear, think of that person ever.(L = -inf.) However, this hate to goes away after sometime, and you come to a balance where you dont care about the existence of that person. (L(k) = 0).

If you have read the post till here, then I am sure you are a vetti fellow :P